panic attacks when trying to handle my ball

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About 2 years ago I got bitten by my ball, totally my fault. She had just fed and I open the feedbtub and came at her from above. The feedbtub still smelled like rat so I figure she thought she was getting seconds. Anywho, I didn't give it time to air out before coming in to get her and she got me pretty good. Nothing bad, a good chomp and wrap for a minute then just a bit of blood and some wrecked nereves.

Since then I get a panic attacks every time I go to handle her for feedings, cleanings etc. I wear my BBQ gloves to get her out, the nice padded ones that go up to your elbows. I hate that I don't handle her anymore and feel sorry for the poor dear, I used to love to take her out and let her wander around. Now I just give her the basics and leave her be.

I'm on meds for panic attacks, I already had them long before owning a snake, but I still get one every damn time.

Advice? Take off the gloves? Handle more frequently to give myself more confidence? I'm not afraid of pain, its a switch that gets flipped in my mind and its hard(almost impossible) to control.

Sorry this is a bit long but I just got done feeding her and cleaning the tank out and finally figured I'd ask for help. I'm seriously debating giving her up.