why the hell does this happen to me?

[Zoe]

I am very devastated, more so than I have ever been before.

I woke up this morning to see something weird with my baby rack (which is a series of drawers stackles vertically) and noticed the fifth one was completely open, of course the snake was gone. It took me another half second to notice a snake hanging from the second drawer (which was closed). The snake was dead, and was caught between the drawer and the divider between the next drawer right by where she ate last night (for this to happen the drawer would have be disconnected, and reconnected when she was half out). Her head also had two deep cuts. That doesn't make any sense to me! I KNOW the drawers were closed last night and I know that they can't be opened by the snakes. It's not like I get up at night, sleepwalk, and kill them.

Of course, I can't find the fifth one, but I still have no idea how the drawer opened. And it's not like it was open a little crack, it was completely open. I doubt I ever will, because of his size, but I have searched long and hard and put out a hide box on a heat pad. I hope he comes to it.

I really don't understand what happened, because short of someone doing it it just doesnt make sense!

This has really left me without a taste for breeding snakes. Everything is going so awfully and I can't understand how. I didn't do this to see half my babies die (with my luck they all will). I am even contemplating just selling everything (but I doubt I'll do that).

I'm not sure what I can do now, I can't seem to cry. Go hug my cat I guess.

Zoe