How do you stay motivated?
So the past 2 weeks I have been feeling very un-motivated. This is a vent/rant. Iif you don't want to read it just leave now. This board is full of good souls so I feel pretty good about asking you guys what your thoughts are.
I can't really explain it, I'm not depressed, and I know what I want to do for a living but I just wake up some days and don't feel the urge to leave the house. I stay home and work on school stuff or else just play games. That or i just stay asleep, having trouble waking up before noon.
Social life has taken a plunge since I quit my job in August to go back to school. I'm driving an hour and a half one way daily(3hrs roundtrip) to get to school. This coupled with the workload I'm experiencing(going for Game/Simulation Programming, have to learn Java, Javascript, and PHP this semester), is making it really tough to find time for anything even on the weekends.
My girlfriend has been supportive, we had a good Valentines Day, but I just feel like the fire under my *** that was there when I quit Domino's to better my situation has died a little.
I've been considering going to a part time school schedule and doing a semester then working for the Spring/Summer and repeating. Doing this will take me 8 years instead of 4 to finish and I'll be almost 34... But it feels like it will keep things in scope for me because the main reason I've come back is because at Domino's I was just treading water and living life pretty much paycheck to paycheck. I think it would keep me motivated. Last semester being this motivated I got a 4.0, this semester I'm carrying a 3.0-ish.
I want to be able to live life because I'm still young. I see people I graduated High School with and they are married, with kids, and a steady job. Living somewhere else besides this frigging valley(which if anyone who knows the wyoming valley will tell you, sucks people down)I look at how much some people have accomplished and I just don't understand... How do you make the money to go on these awesome trips with your friends 3 times a year, attend school, work a job, get good grades, and juggle a relationship/social life without freaking out?
Is this just frugal saving, are the parents helping out? I feel like I'm kind of moving forward but the wall I have to climb is so big it's gonna take everything to get over. Then I'm worried that when I do make it over, I'll be almost 30 with my young years behind me and still unhappy with my current situation. Working daily and not having the time to do the things I love or see the places I want to see because of the pursuit of the almighty dollar.
So frustrated..but enough ranting. So I guess my question is too all of you who have made it this far, what keeps you motivated? What drives you to be better everyday?
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